If you’re ever needing a general outline of your frame of mind, check your google search history. As you can see, mine has included some pretty lofty goals and then a curiosity for other things…that people do…that I just wanted to check out…be informed. Really I wanted to read something that didn’t have any pre-requisites for the past year of my life because nothing says “must have been in treatment and still in recovery for an eating disorder, self harm and addiction.” I know there are a million ways to lead a life, different paths and opportunities…it still hurts to feel doubtful of your own capabilities to amount to anything even if you’re not sure what “anything” means. I don’t know many people in or out of recovery who don’t feel this way so I don’t feel alone, I feel….I don’t know how I feel, I’m looking up how to get a master’s degree while selling used underwear. I think that’s just a simple sentence: I’m living.