I think time frames in general are working in unison to get me more off track. Minutes are increasingly tapped out into what then becomes hours that I thought might have been seconds. In the morning no matter what I do I either get to school really early or late enough to make my heart… Continue reading Is it?
I’ve been in treatment for three weeks now and every day I think of words to write, I type on the keyboard I draw in my journal I fill lines with ink and close every form that holds my words and I pull back into staring outward. It’s again become a whirlpool of looking out… Continue reading In the making
I saw the movie Joy on Christmas Day with my family *side note–did you notice in the calendar on your cellphone how the 26th is blocked off as a holiday simply called “the day after Christmas”? I’ve looked at it a few times and I’m not sure what I think but my facial response could… Continue reading The walk of joy
Heyyyyyyyyyy treatment!! What’s up? How have you been? Anything new, like new bathrooms new groups maybe a new binder outlining my stay??? I think this conversation is so funny in my head, it keeps me from thinking “oh shit I’m going to treatment again.” Shit. I’m going to treatment again. Check into my… Continue reading A lot does meet the eye
I’ve been watching Good Will Hunting…that’s what I’m referring to with the whole “do you like apples” line. I mean I also have general interest in whether or not you like apples but more so the movie is on my mind. I’ve had a lot of body sensations or maybe memories?? I don’t know, here’s… Continue reading do you like apples?
I’m pissy as fuck. Eating more does that to me. I start seeing my reflection even more deluded and hearing people chew makes me want to throw daggers into innocent flower seeds. I’d say animals eyes but that’s a number one sign of being a sociopath and I’m not…for the record I’ve seriously never harmed… Continue reading Man. Just…no.
Okay now I remember what I’ve been wanting to write about, what more than anything going on in my life, I’ve really been wanting to express. I’m sick of hearing people comment on everyone who is on their electronic devices. I’ll give you some examples: “well would you look at that, that whole family is… Continue reading would you look at that
Oh the rest of september, october and so far november….what’s up. I’ve had so many thoughts and a huge barrier to writing. I’ve been warped by what people will think what they already think what I say what I want to say where I’ve been what’s been happening should I be honest do I care… Continue reading up of the whats
There’s a guy in my apartment complex who walks around with a parrot on his shoulder and I think he is amazing. Every time I see him I get an overall sense of satisfaction. I picture so many images of what the rest of his life could be, my imagination runs wild, and I realize… Continue reading shadowboxing
Body image is a bitch with an eating disorder. it’s not an awesome piece of hovering information over anyone’s life but when you have an eating disorder it rules the planets in your mind more intensely. It’s never about the body in my case, ever. As many times as I wrap it around and exclaim… Continue reading image-ine